Today has been has been one of those days!!!!

Well.... Time to update since i haven't wrote in my blog for a few days. For the past few weeks, i have been having really bad dizzy spells, so i decided that after my friend Audrey and my husbands constant nagging ha ha that I had better go to the doctor and sure enough i found out that i have vertigo. Yay!!!! So now i am on pills. i hate pills, but so far, i have not had a dizzy spell..... Yet.... So that is a plus! So that was my day yesterday. Today, on the other hand, my friend Audrey and I took the kids out shopping, basically just to get out of the house and then took the swimming. They had fun! It was one of those days that seemed to drag and drag and drag some more. UGH! Hate those days! But..... My kids, whom i love to death cannot go to bed when they are told to and they know what time that is. Can we say, that I want to lose my mind?! I love my kids, but they have their minds made up that until i go to bed, they aren't going to bed. Are you kidding me. I can barely get the baby to sleep by a certain time, but when she does go to sleep i constantly am fighting with the other two..... Like I said today has been one of those days, but i do give myself credit for doing the best i can with my friend Audrey's help, of course and considering that I am being mom and dad to three kids right now!!!!! Other than that, life is good!!!!

day 5, 6, and 7

Well I am a little behind on my last three days of writing blogs. So I decided that I had better catch up, rather than keep falling behind. So, the last few days have been better and the days are slowing going by a little bit faster, which is good. It was way nice to hear my husband's voice the other day. It made the kids feel at peace and me as well. The weekend was kind of rough because my kids wanted to fight a lot and were getting pretty bored, but other than that it was pretty good. We watched a couple movies off of netflix and then enjoyed the sunshine outside. Today my friend Audrey and I took the kids to Walmart basically just to get out of the house and then she hurt her finger. I felt bad that she was in so much pain..... Now I finally got my baby to sleep and my oldest two are cleaning their rooms and being obnoxious. Bedtime at 8:00 at my house doesn'y happen when school is out unless daddy is home..... Won't that be nice:) Anyway, just thought I would catch up on the last few days. I have been busy, as we all know how it is with one parent at home and three kids. My life keeps getting hectic and I am overwhelmed and exausted, but honestly I don't know what I would do if I didn't have my kids to keep me on my feet. I love them more than anything. Have a good night everyone. Hopefully now I can keep up with my blogs.

day 4

Well today is day four and still struggling a bit, but taking it one day at a time. Got a phone call from my husband and that was the best feeling ever. There for a moment, the emptiness and loneliness feeling went away, but now it is back. Hearing his voice brings so much peace. I love him more than words can say. He is the best husband and the best father to our children. He is my best friend. I could never live without him. Anyway...... The kids got to talk to him and now they are happier too. They are still acting up today, but kids will be kids and i love them anyway. Well better go for now. It is bedtime and I am exausted. Day five is right around the corner and gotta make the best out of many more days to come.

"The Military Wife" ~Author Unknown~

"The Military Wife" ~Author Unknown~

The good Lord was creating a model for military wives and was into His sixth day of overtime when an angel appeared. She said, "Lord, you seem to be having a lot of trouble with this one. What's wrong with the standard model?"

The Lord replied, "Have you seen the specs on this order. She has to be completely independent, possess the qualities of both a father and mother, be a perfect hostess to four or forty with an hour's notice, run on black coffee, handle every emergency imaginable without a manual, be able to carry on cheerfully, even if she is pregnant and has the flu, and she must be willing to move to a new location ten times in seventeen years. And, oh yes, she must have six pairs of hands!"

The angel shook her head, "Six pairs of hands? No way."

The Lord continued,"Don't worry, I will make other military wives to help her. And I will give her an unusually strong heart so it can swell with pride in her husband's achievements, sustain the pain of separations, beat soundly when it is overworked and tired, and be large enough to say, 'I understand' when she doesn't and say 'I love you', regardless."

"Lord," said the angel, touching his arm gently. "Go to bed and get some rest.You can finish this tomorrow."

"I can't stop now," said the Lord. "I am so close to creating something unique. Already this model heals herself when she is sick, can put up six unexpected guests for the weekend, wave good-bye to her husband from a pier, a runway or a depot, and understand why it's important that he leave."

The angel circled the model of the military wife, looked at it closely and sighed, "It looks fine, but it's too soft."

"She might look soft," replied the Lord. "But she has the strength of a lion. You would not believe what she can endure."

Finally the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek of the Lord's creation. "There's a leak," she announced. "Something is wrong with the construction. I am not surprised that it has cracked. You are trying to put too much into this model."

The Lord appeared offended at the angel's lack of onfidence. "What you see is not a leak," He said. "It's a tear." "A tear? What is it there for?" asked the angel.

The Lord replied, "It's for joy, sadness, pain, disappointment, loneliness, pride and a dedication to all the values that she and her husband hold dear."

"You are a genius!" exclaimed the angel.

The Lord looked puzzled and replied, "I didn't put it there."

day 3

Well day three has come and gone. I now know that I am getting a little bit stronger by the day, but today, I think has been one of my weakest. My kids are fighting a lot and my baby didn't sleep good last night and didn't want to fall asleep tonight. This keeps getting harder and harder, but I hold my head high and keep walking forward hoping each and everyday gets easier. My husband and I are emailing back and forth and he is having it rough as well. Let's just say, i'm glad that he can bite his tongue with certain people because I wouldn't hold back! I'm not the girl that allows people to pick on or bully me anymore. I am better than that. Anyway..... I am really thankful for all the wonderful support that me and my kids have. I have one friend (she knows who she is) who has called me to see if i'm okay and writes to me all the time everyday. I love her and how much she cares. I know who my true friends are. Anyway. Enough with this blog for the night, more importanly, i need to email my husband.

Warrior

Warrior



I never wore the uniform,

no medals on my chest.

The band it doesnt play for me,

I am not among the Best.

I do not march in cadence,

I do not rate salute,

I stand among the silent ranks,

our devotion absolute.



If youve not worn my shoes,

you do not know my story.

I live a life of sacrifice,

my reward a private glory.

Ive wept many silent nights away,

and Ive kept the home fires burning.

Ive worried and Ive waited,

as world events were churning.



Ive moved more times than you could fathom,

left more people than youve known.

Ive planted gardens round the world --

Very few that Ive seen grown.

Ive grieved with new-made widows,

and had my share of scares --

when a ship or plane or man was down,

and all I had were prayers.



Im not asking for your sympathy,

(although appreciation can be nice)

I did it quite on purpose though --

I chose to sacrifice.

Ill tell you a secret now,

one youd never guess.

About the one glory that is mine,

its just enough no more, no less.



When you and I stand together

as our national anthem plays,

Ill fill with reminiscences

of how I spent those days.

Ill know the pain and joys again,

Ill know that freedom isnt free,

Ill know Ive helped to pay the price



and that the anthem plays for me.

My Life as a Navy Wife

Well, day two is almost over. Very many more to come and go and I hope that it goes by really fast. I miss my husband so much. My kids are not the same when daddy is gone. It breaks my heart. It is so hard right now trying to be mommy and daddy, but I am doing the best that I can. I wish my husband could call and email every single day, that way his voice would give me and the kids more comfort. This may sound really silly, but I washed all my bedding today so that I didn't have to smell my husband he he. Crazy, I know, but smelling that smell makes me want him more and more even when I look in his closet! I miss everything about him even though he is such a bed hog! Anyway...... I better get off here before people think I am pathetic, but if you do, that's your problem. I love my husband and that's that!